17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

Some of these have been really hard for me, but this one was easy for me. The #1 thing that I want to be great at is being a great wife (a mother some day too, but one step at a time!!).
I am very thankful that the Lord blessed me with David as my partner in life. It is so neat to look back at the steps that brought me to him. It definitely wasn't always easy and didn't always make sense at the time, but it is clear that I was where I needed to be in order to meet the one that He made for me!

Truthfully, though, marriage is one of the scariest things to me. I don't even want to begin to try to count the number of marriages that I have seen fall apart during my life time. I'm not talking celebrities and politicians, I am talking about family members, friends, and church members. I'm talking about marriages that I thought were solid and were built on a solid foundation.

I'm going to do a combo here and combine this one with # 26 on the list - What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong. I feel like the world (especially the US) has a completely wrong view of marriage. In previous generations, marriage was for life - good or bad, rich or poor, in sickness and in health. Now it seems like people are bailing when things get too rough. Don't get me wrong. I know that there are some instances in which divorce is ok, even the Bible says so. I am not talking about those cases. Well, actually I kind of am. Not only are people bailing, but they are also wandering from the bonds of marriage. Marriage is not sacred any more - to those in a marriage and those outside of a marriage. It amazes me how many people could care less about the commitment that was made between two people AND GOD. I don't know the actual statistics (and I'm not really that great with numbers anyway) but I know that a LOT of marriages are coming to a tragic end because of infidelity. Sadly, this is true inside the church about as much as outside of the church. Extramarital affairs, pornography, prostitution are all stealing the lives of men and women every day. They leave people feeling neglected, unworthy, unlovable, and alone.

Which brings me back to the one thing that I hope I can be great at. I want to be a great wife. I want to take care of David. I want to encourage him. I want to be there for him when he needs me. I want to uplift him. I want to make him feel comfortable. I want to make him feel special. I want to make him feel honored. I want to make him feel cherished. I want to show him what a godly marriage truly can be. I want to love David so much that he would never even consider looking to someone else.

On the flip side...I don't want to nag him. I don't want to discourage him. I don't want to put him down. I don't want to turn him away. I don't want to neglect him. I don't want to make him feel unworthy or dishonored. I don't want him to EVER turn away and be tempted, even for a minute!

Am I that kind of wife? Not nearly enough. I won't lie. I nag. I discourage. I put down. I don't show love like I should. I can assure you, though, that thanks to the Holy Spirit, I know when I do those things. I feel crummy. It eats at me until I ask for forgiveness. I think that means I am at least learning to be a good wife. I know I am not perfect and I never will be, but I sure hope that I can at least continue to learn from my mistakes, ask for forgiveness, and make those same mistakes less.

That's my goal - to be a good wife to David.
**And like I said, one day, to be a great mom! =)